well what can i say, its been a long time since i last blogged! I've gotta say i've had an eventful couple of weeks too! Some good news and some bad.

First of all i started my new job this month, unsure if i blogged about this but i'm not really in the mood to check! Its ok, alot more professional than my last place, hell i even have to wear a shirt and tie! i'm not really sure on much i'm doing at the moment and i spend alot of my time just sat round doing nothing as i dont know what i am meant to be doing but i'm sure i'll start to pick up what i am meant to be doing a bit more soon.

I'm not longer going to be a best man, not because me and my best mate have fallen out or anything its just the wedding has been cancelled. Many people may see this as a bad thing but she really wasnt the girl for him! she proved this on monday night but thats a story for a blog of its own!

I'm finally 21, i had a great birthday weekend, where i dont remember anything after 10pm on the sat night and then i saw many of my family i havent seen in like over a year on the sunday which was really nice. On my actual birthday i made the four and a half trip to newcastle with one of my mates. This was a good night out, better than just having a tuesday night out in cheltenham any way! didnt manage to pull but hey thats my luck at the moment!

I've managed to mess up another potential relationship too in less than three weeks and just four dates! worst thing is, is that we never even got into the bedroom! we are still gonna be friends though so at least i've got another mate.

Finally the biggest piece of news is that i am going to move out of my parents house, while this will mean less internet access, less money for myself (as more will be spent on bills) but i think it will be really good for me. I'll have to learn to cook, do household stuff such as washing and ironing but i'll also have that little bit more independance. I think it'll help me grow as a person and i'm almost looknig at it like a challenge. I'll probs post more on this another time.

Oh and i've put on more weight

I cannot believe it i got stood up! its kinda dented my last bit of confidence i had left. It was meant to be my 1st date in a good few months and she didnt even bother to turn up. The worst thing is, is that she didnt know wot i looked like or even what i'm like as a guy! she wasnt even that willing to give me a chance!

Needless to say i've spent the whole night drinking now and i'm a little worst for wear! i need to go to bed now so good night every one! lets hope everyone else did better than me!

so in ust ten mins i'll be setting off for my blind date today. I've got to admit i'm kinda nervous, i'm also thinking fuck it i'm nt gonna go. I always think that though before a date i think its just nerves, so i'm still gonna go. I've got to keep telling myself "whats the worst that could happen?! it goes crap so i get pissed, nothing lost!

so wish me luck!...