I aint managed to blog for some time as it seems i just have no spare time at all at the moment! the worse thing is that i really dont know what i'm doing the whole time?!

I'm meant to be going to the gym a few times a week, getting college work done, filling in application forms (oh yeah i'll say more on that in a bit!) playing the guitar and finding new exercises for the lads to do at football each week, let alone having a social life and maybe even playing footie again myself! I'm also stoney broke, where as i only have £30 in my bank account which isnt good! but hell i'll just compare it to this time last year where i was still around a grand in debt.

So i've been filling in loads of application forms, i've got so depressed and resentful about my current job i'm desperate to change it. the only problem is that i've only got experience at the place i am now which isnt helping me find a job! Also why is it that job application forms are so bloody awkward to fill out? i mean does any one actually know what they want you to write in some of the gaps? for example "why do you wanna work for construction uk?" um cause your gonna offer me £20,000 a year?

I've really been negelecting my exercise and diet too. I've not been on a run or to the gym in ages! and for my diet well i've kinda just been eating what i can when i can and so far its not been healthy! i've also been on alot of nights out which doesnt help. The problem i've got is that its end of the football season so i've got two presentation nights which involve lots of heavy drinking, every one seems to be turning 21 (again lots of heavy drinking!) and then every one seems to want me to visit them atm which for the last time involves lots of heavy drinking! i think from next week i'm gonna have to maybe just try to get out of some of these social things i've got planned!

My college work is in dire straights too, i've got two assignments where i really dont have a clue what to do! i'm just looking at them and going "bugger!" i really dont know what to do. I've also got a total of 6 full assignments and around 5 re-submits to do within 5 weeks! thats gotta be impossible aint it? well i'll have to have a go at it.

Well sorry to ramble its just i think my heads a mess at the moment as i've got so much flying round in it! i'll be glad when college is finished, the footie events are done for a few months and i just have crappy work to contend with.

oh and dont even ask how the guitar is going!